So I have been one busy, busy yoga bee.
buzz. buzz. buzz. buzz.
One month in to my 200 hour Yoga Teacher Training, and it has been an amazing experience so far. It clearly is no secret that I have a mad love affair with yoga going on, but to fall in love with something deeper and deeper each day, is truly a blessing. Learning so much about the asanas (postures) and pranayama (breathing) techniques, who knew there were so many ways to breathe?! But also myself and the world around me with the yamas and niyamas. 4 limbs into yoga and I still feel that I haven't even scratched the surface.
In brief the eight limbs, or steps to yoga, are as follows:
I know it will come, one day it will click and become more fluid, on the teaching level anyway. But I am still trying to find my authentic teaching self (without sounding too corny or cheesy, but to allow my softer side to show up, without sounding...fake ??) That is a whole other issue in itself. I am comfortable on a stage while singing because I tend to put this guarded persona up there on stage with me, she's a bit tougher, a bit louder, but still me and just as scared. It's there to keep me safe from embarrassing myself, to roll with the punches as they come, and defer the audience with an invisible armor. Some may think it would be easy for me to teach because I am used to being in front of a crowd but trying to tone that "persona" down to be more approachable, and still have me shine through, is proving to be an unexpected challenge, one I never even thought about before any of this even began.
Fear. It's not real, right? So just let it go (aparigraha. let that shit go).
Easier said then done, my friend, easier said then done. I am always a work in progress. :)
We are all works in progress, my hope is that we may all bloom to our full potential, to be our radiant selves, so that our light may brighten others.
A Blooming Yogini is someone on a journey to their authentic self, a union of mind, body and spirit to a more healthy, thriving , and vibrant you.
Live. Love. Bloom.
Casandra Barnes - The Blooming Yogini