Casandra Barnes - The Blooming Yogini
Teacher Training is quickly drawing to a close and as i have been teaching classes here and there for practice, I find that the most difficult thing to do while teaching, on top of giving proper cues and adjustments and remembering the sequence, has been being true to who i am. In fact it's really been about finding myself altogether.
Finding my voice was the one thing I thought I wouldn’t have to worry anything about. To teach a yoga class, I would learn the postures, the breathing, the cues, the proper form, how to adjust, how to correct alignment, the philosophy, the history, the tradition, chanting, Hindu mythology, the texts, the Bhagavad Gita, the Yamas and Niyamas, the Sutras, (just to name a few things we've touched upon and learned), I was on board. For all of it. But I never thought about being authentic and finding my own voice. How does someone teach you that? I felt like an imposter teaching my first class at my home studio. My mentor, sitting on the side observing, I was in her place at the front of the room, I had never really seen the room or bodies from that perspective in THAT room, and at that point every authentic bit about me flew out the window. Now I’m sure this is part of anyone being nervous and teaching for the 1st time in front of their mentor, maybe, or I hope anyway. But how does one begin to fill shoes, that are maybe too big for her. You can't fake it til you make it in this case, like every other "job" i've had since i've left college. Yogis know. They can smell fake, and see thru the bullshit.
You know when you feel you are born to do something? It still takes work, and if you have passion for that work, it really isn't work at all...
"Now play the game... Your game... The one that only you was meant to play... Then one that was given to you when you come into this world... don't hold nothin back give it everything... Now's the time... Let yourself remember... Remember YOUR swing"
We are all works in progress, my hope is that we may all bloom to our full potential, to be our radiant selves, so that our light may brighten others.
A Blooming Yogini is someone on a journey to their authentic self, a union of mind, body and spirit to a more healthy, thriving , and vibrant you.
Live. Love. Bloom.